Masterman and Son
Copyright© 2024 by W. J. Dawson
Chapter 3: The Big Strong Beast
The next morning Masterman wrote a letter to the overjoyed trustees of the Orchard Green Church, offering to make good without cost all defects of workmanship in the building which might be justly charged to him. He was careful to explain that while they had no legal claim on him, he regarded this work as a debt of honour.
He had just finished the letter when Arthur came into the office. Arthur’s manner was constrained and almost timid. Masterman, on the contrary, was in his most jovial mood. He had just performed an act which was not only good in itself, but wise and politic; for, of course, he knew that his action toward the Orchard Green trustees would become public, and would be quoted to his credit.
“Well,” he began, “getting a bit tired of doing nothing? Not that I grudge you your liberty, you know. I promised you a year to look around, before you settle to your life-work, and I shall stick to my bargain. But I confess it will be a glad day for me when I write ‘Masterman & Son’ over my doors.”
“I’m very far from doing nothing, sir,” he answered. “Oxford is one world, and London quite another. I am learning every day a lot of things Oxford never taught me.”
“Of course you are. London’s a big world, and the things it has to teach are the things that count. Not that Oxford isn’t worth while too. It gives a man a start in life nothing else can give. That’s why I sent you there, you know.”
“Yes, I know, father, and I am grateful to you.”
“Nothing to be grateful for, my boy. I owed it to you.” His face softened with a musing look very unusual with him. “I got no kind of start myself, you know,” he continued. “At fifteen I was working in a brickfield. When I went home at night, my father used to beat me. I don’t think I ever hated any one as I hated my father. One day I struck back, and ran away from home. Queer thing—I was always sorry for that blow. I used to lie awake at nights for weeks after, wondering if I really hurt the old man. From that day to this I never saw him any more. But I’m still sorry for that blow. Sons shouldn’t hit their parents, anyway. I ought to have let him go on beating me; he’d got the habit, and I could have stood it all right. Well, well, it’s such a long time ago that I can hardly believe it ever happened.”
He stopped suddenly, with a lift of the shoulders, as if he shook off the burden of that squalid past. But the rude words had left the son inexpressibly touched. A swift picture passed before his mind of a gaunt boy toiling over heavy tasks, ill-paid, cruelly used, wandering out into the world lonely and unguided, and a strong passion of pity and of wonder shook his heart. Above all, those artless words, “Sons shouldn’t hit their fathers, anyway,” fell upon him with the weight of a reproach. Had he not already condemned his father in his thoughts? He had known very well to whom Clark alluded in his sermon, and yet he had approved. He had entered the office that morning with the fixed intent of endorsing Clark’s tacit accusation of his father. And now he found himself suddenly disarmed. That old sense of something big about his father came back to him with redoubled force. To start like that, shovelling clay in a brickyard for twelve hours a day, and to become what he was—oh! it needed a big man to do that, an Esau who was scarcely to be judged by the standards of smooth-skinned, home-staying Jacobs.
“I didn’t know you had suffered all that, father. You never told me that before.”
“There’s a sight of things I’ve suffered that I wouldn’t like you to know. But they were all in the day’s work, and I don’t complain. And that’s one thing I want to say to you, and I may as well say it now. You’ve got a start I never had, and you won’t suffer what I suffered, but I want you to know that the world’s a pretty hard place to live in anyway. You can’t go through it without being badly hurt somewhere. You’ve got to take what you want, or you won’t get it. Talking isn’t going to mend things: life’s a big strong beast, and it isn’t words but a bit and bridle and a whip a man needs who is going to succeed. Now you’re at the talking stage, and I don’t complain. You admire talkers like Clark, and you think they are doing no end of good, don’t you? Well, you’ll learn better presently. You’ll find that the world goes on much the same as it ever did, in spite of the talkers. I want you to digest that fact just as soon as you can, and then you’ll be ready to step down into the thick of life where I am, and help me do the things I want to do.”
“But, father, is what Clark said concerning you true?”
“Do you want to discuss it with me?”
“No; I have no right to ask that.”
“Yes, you have. I want you to join in the business when you’re ready, and you’ve a right to know what kind of business it is, and, if you like to put it so, what kind of person your partner is.”
“He is my father, and I love him. That is enough,” said Arthur proudly.
“No, it isn’t enough. I had a father, and I didn’t love him. But as to this business of Clark’s. He found out something against me, and instead of coming to me about it, he preached a sermon on it, and for that I don’t forgive him. Well, what was it he found out? No more than this—that ten years ago I had to do a cheap job, and I did it cheaply. My work has held together ten years, which is about all that could be expected at the price. Now I’ll tell you what I’ve done. I’ve agreed to do the work over again for nothing. There’s the letter which I’ve just written. You had better read it.”
Arthur took the letter, and read it slowly. His father had risen from his desk, and stood watching him narrowly. Perhaps until that moment he had never quite realised how much his heart was set on having his son in the business with him. And he wanted above all things to win the son’s approval. Perhaps there was some underlying thought of this kind in his mind when he wrote the letter. Not that he meant to alter all the methods of his business to suit his son. Once in the business, Arthur would learn what these were by imperceptible degrees, and would grow accustomed to them. But just now the father’s heart was wholly set upon concession and conciliation. He remembered, with a rush of tenderness, how he had long ago taught the boy to swim. He could still see the slight, childish form shivering on the rock above the swimming-pool. He had begun with threats, but had soon found them useless. Then he had used persuasion and cajolery, until at last the boy had slipt into the pool, and in a week was swimming with the best of them. Well, it was like that now. If he could but cajole him into the deep stream of life, that was enough; when the deep water heaved beneath his feet, he would have to do what the others did in pure self-defence.
“Well?” he said at last.
Arthur laid down the letter and turned a shining face upon his father.
“It is a noble letter, father. Forgive me that I misjudged you.”
“That’s all right, then.”
“You have taught me a lesson. I shall not forget it.”
“Oh! don’t take it too seriously, my boy. It is only a small affair, after all.”
But each knew that it was not a small affair. In that moment these two opposite natures were nearer together than they had ever been before, and, although neither knew it, nearer than they would ever be again.
Arthur left his father with a strong sense of exaltation. The cloud of misgiving concerning his father’s methods of business had miraculously dissolved. In the quick rebound of feeling he was inclined to judge himself intolerant and unjust, and his father’s image glowed before his mind, endued with heroic virtues. He shuddered when he thought of his father’s youth, with its dreadful disabilities; he kindled with admiring ardour when the thought of his father’s triumph over a weight of circumstance which would have crushed a weaker man. If some of the mire of the pit yet clung to him, if in many things he was crude, violent, narrow, it was not surprising; the marvel was that his faults were not more numerous and more unpardonable. As Arthur went to his room, he caught a vision of himself in the mirror of his wardrobe—a slight figure admirably clothed, a face fresh and unlined, with white forehead and close curling hair, the picture of youth delicately nurtured, upon whom the winds of life had not blown roughly—and he was filled with compunction at the contrast afforded by that other picture of a poor drudging boy toiling in a brickfield and beaten by a drunken parent. In spite of all his superficial superiorities, he seemed a creature of small significance beside this Titanic father of his.
It was an exquisite spring morning, one of those mornings when London draws her first fresh, unimpeded breath after the long, choking fogs of winter. The lawn lay green beneath the window, presided over by a busy thrush, who flirted his wings in the strong sunlight, and stopped at intervals to address a long mellow note of rapture to the blue sky; the japonica had hung the garden wall with crimson blossoms; the poplars took the light upon their slender spires, till each burned with yellow flame. Nature, unconquered by the gross antipathy of man, was invading the brick Babylon, flinging brocades of light upon the beaten ways, and filling them with the music of the pipes of Pan. Arthur could not resist the call.
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