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Tommy and Grizel

Copyright© 2026 by J. M. Barrie

Chapter 29: The Red Light

It was an evening without stars, but fair, sufficient wind to make her Ladyship cling haughtily to his arm as they turned corners. Many of the visitors were in the garden, some grouped round a quartet of gaily attired minstrels, but more sitting in little arbours or prowling in search of an arbour to sit in; the night was so dark that when our two passed beyond the light of the hotel windows they could scarce see the shrubs they brushed against; cigars without faces behind them sauntered past; several times they thought they had found an unoccupied arbour at last, when they heard the clink of coffee-cups.

“I believe the castle dates from the fifteenth century,” Tommy would then say suddenly, though it was not of castles he had been talking.

With a certain satisfaction he noticed that she permitted him, without comment, to bring in the castle thus and to drop it the moment the emergency had passed. But he had little other encouragement. Even when she pressed his arm it was only as an intimation that the castle was needed.

“I can’t even make her angry,” he said wrathfully to himself.

“You answer not a word,” he said in great dejection to her.

“I am afraid to speak,” she admitted. “I don’t know who may hear.”

“Alice,” he said eagerly, “what would you say if you were not afraid to speak?”

They had stopped, and he thought she trembled a little on his arm, but he could not be sure. He thought—but he was thinking too much again; at least, Lady Pippinworth seemed to come to that conclusion, for with a galling little laugh she moved on. He saw with amazing clearness that he had thought sufficiently for one day.

On coming into the garden with her, and for some time afterwards, he had been studying her so coolly, watching symptoms rather than words, that there is nothing to compare the man to but a doctor who, while he is chatting, has his finger on your pulse. But he was not so calm now. Whether or not he had stirred the woman, he was rapidly firing himself.

When next he saw her face by the light of a window, she at the same instant turned her eyes on him; it was as if each wanted to know correctly how the other had been looking in the darkness, and the effect was a challenge.

Like one retreating a step, she lowered her eyes. “I am tired,” she said. “I shall go in.”

“Let us stroll round once more.”

“No, I am going in.”

“If you are afraid——” he said, with a slight smile.

She took his arm again. “Though it is too bad of me to keep you out,” she said, as they went on, “for you are shivering. Is it the night air that makes you shiver?” she asked mockingly.

But she shivered a little herself, as if with a presentiment that she might be less defiant if he were less thoughtful. For a month or more she had burned to teach him a lesson, but there was a time before that when, had she been sure he was in earnest, she would have preferred to be the pupil.

Two ladies came out of an arbour where they had been drinking coffee, and sauntered towards the hotel. It was a tiny building, half concealed in hops and reached by three steps, and Tommy and his companion took possession. He groped in the darkness for a chair for her, and invited her tenderly to sit down. She said she preferred to stand. She was by the open window, her fingers drumming on the sill. Though he could not see her face, he knew exactly how she was looking.

“Sit down,” he said, rather masterfully.

“I prefer to stand,” she repeated languidly.

He had a passionate desire to take her by the shoulders, but put his hand on hers instead, and she permitted it, like one disdainful but helpless. She said something unimportant about the stillness.

“Is it so still?” he said in a low voice. “I seem to hear a great noise. I think it must be the beating of my heart.”

“I fancy that is what it is,” she drawled.

“Do you hear it?”

“No.”

“Did you ever hear your own heart beat, Alice?”

“No.”

He had both her hands now. “Would you like to hear it?”

She pulled away her hands sharply. “Yes,” she replied with defiance.

“But you pulled away your hands first,” said he.

He heard her breathe heavily for a moment, but she said nothing. “Yes,” he said, as if she had spoken, “it is true.”

“What is true?”

“What you are saying to yourself just now—that you hate me.”

She beat the floor with her foot.

“How you hate me, Alice!”

“Oh, no.”

“Yes, indeed you do.”

“I wonder why,” she said, and she trembled a little.

“I know why.” He had come close to her again. “Shall I tell you why?”

She said “No,” hurriedly.

“I am so glad you say No.” He spoke passionately, and yet there was banter in his voice, or so it seemed to her. “It is because you fear to be told; it is because you had hoped that I did not know.”

“Tell me why I hate you!” she cried.

“Tell me first that you do.”

“Oh, I do, I do indeed!” She said the words in a white heat of hatred.

Before she could prevent him he had raised her hand to his lips.

“Dear Alice!” he said.

“Why is it?” she demanded.

“Listen!” he said. “Listen to your heart, Alice; it is beating now. It is telling you why. Does it need an interpreter? It is saying you hate me because you think I don’t love you.”

“Don’t you?” she asked fiercely.

“No,” Tommy said.

Her hands were tearing each other, and she could not trust herself to speak. She sat down deadly pale in the chair he had offered her.

 
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